August 25th, 2005

handholding

It's officially the end of summer ...

So, I just got woken up by my dad calling. He wants to move me out completely this weekend before the holiday. He's renting a trailer so we can get it all in one go. It's really happening, and I really don't want it to.

On one hand, I'll be around my mom a lot more, she'll probably start to feel better with her daughter back. And I'll have my car at my disposal. And I'll be in my own bedroom in my own bed. I'll also get to see people that I haven't seen in a while. I'll be closer to Mitsua. Jenni will still be around, since she's coming home too. She's got one more semester. I'm still not sure if she'll be going back to Europe or not.

Yet, on the other hand, I'll severely miss Lincoln Park and my freedom. I'll miss all the friends I made around here. We'll keep in touch, but I know it won't be the same. I've never wanted to not move back in all the 4 years of my college life until this year. I'll miss the kitties, they're going with Jen. I'll miss going out to eat at Sushi Para II and Clarke's. I'm not looking forward to the hour commute. I'm not looking forward to all the gen ed's I have to finish.

I don't want to go back to the 'burbs. But I miss my bed and my car and my parents. I just know that I'll be moving back to Lincoln Park when I'm finished with school. There's no doubt in my mind this is where I want to stay.

I've got so much shit to move out of here. A lot of it has to stay, too. Because Jen needs it, like the dishes, the stereo, the TV, maybe the computer. I know that as soon as I tell Keidy that I'm leaving this weekend, she'll go apeshit trying to burn all the stuff off of my computer. That's another thing I'm glad will stop once I'm back in the 'burbs. Living with 1.5 roommates (Keidy only counts as half, she's not here all the time) is a bit much for me.

But, things to look forward to?: This Friday is Brother's Grim. In a week or two is Advent Children. Then there's YaoiCon and THE Reactor in October and GoF movie and my birthday in November. Then I have ACen in May and Lumos!2006 in July of next year.

Those are some good things. Now, the bad things. Commuting. I need to find out how much it'll cost me to commute and see if it's better if I just drove. I have a feeling I'll be taking the train, but sometimes maybe I'll drive. Then there's the problem I've delt with in the past. Having huge breaks in between class and not knowing what to do with myself. I could try to get a job in the art building during that time. And I need to check up on the Japan trip thing, to see if it really counts towards my jr. year experiential learning.

There's just so much shit that I don't want to deal with at all, but if I don't then I'll be in school until I'm 40. This sucks ... I hate this ...
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